MY GOOD WORD

When I have been used to being faded out on the tile do not be surprised when I can still smile.

Do not be surprised when I am finding joy in the mundane.

Do not be surprised at the fact that I have so much joy within me that some write it off as insane.

Of course it does because their rules were never mine to break.

Instead I pray everyone baffled takes that misplaced shame and reflect it back within and find love in their name.

It takes what it takes.

No one should be surprised when I fill a room with all of those who have loved me and are not here today.

I have all of that energy.

Do not be surprised that I carry so much love within me that the slights and mis-sights of me have no power over me.

And I am absolutely not getting carried away.

This is only the start of a brand new day.

While some were putting the work into someone else’s fall.

I built myself up to be the healthiest I could be and although I am small, I still stand tall.

These are not just words.

This is hope.

I suppose, anyone could make me the running joke.

I am unsure if I could care more or less.

Truly, calling me anything less than ‘you’ will be a choice that I do not waste time reading into.

I am a mother and I am where I am to inspire my youthful spirit.

I do not need anyone to hear it.

I just pray everyone to be full in their soul.

Even when people have wanted the worst for me…

I prayed for them to heal it.

I refuse to let hate age me.

Maybe some think the way anyone mis-spoke of me would have caged me?

Boxed me in?

I have overcome too much and journeyed too far to let a fool win.

Of course, I walk around with the largest grin.

Beside myself? No.

Beside your self?

Possibly…

When I actually choose to cash in instead of crash out on all that I have put my work into.

I have been wrong and I have been right.

However…

I refuse to be anything less than myself any time of day or night.

I rid myself of all the toxicity.

People, places and things.

I no longer existed.

I am only just existing.

I am the water packing the last pure spring.

I gladly put my heart into all that I bring.

Nothing that questions my purpose has any effect on the vision bestowed upon me.

I set what is not needed aside, gratefully.

I do the necessary insatiably.

Every doubt on me has most certainly…

Been worth it.

To now see me in person.

Well…

You would have to deserve it.

That is just the way I choose to work it.

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