BLACK & WHITE THINKING

Am I tripping over what is either good or bad?

Maybe, I just think too much and use unpleasantness as a crutch.

Do not get close enough to touch.

For this day…

I am both ice & fire.

What do you desire?

Why do I do this?

Why do I do that?

Why dwell so much on what was & will never be?

There are so many experiences to be had.

Strip away the black/white thinking.

Only then you are actually thinking.

To deem a human’s existence of only two paths?

Two options seem not nearly enough.

Misplacing judgment & watch them fly or fall.

I have fallen many times.

All my life I have been painted as this sort of villain?

Unravel me if you have the time or patience.

Watch me spin until I lose myself.

Just twirling and at the core is just an essence of sheer entertainment.

Do I put on a show for you?

A little masquerade.

Watch me as I jump, dance and sing at every note that your narrative plays?

At the end of the day I am still okay.

I guess I’ll do this life thing badly, gladly….

Such a treacherous monster.

Yeah…

Okay?

Unsure if I could roll my eyes harder.

Monsters by definition only exist to make sense…

Of the insensible.

Such a monster.

Yet, I barely make myself visible?

When reality cannot be fathomed.

Is it really me that gives you the visual?

For the malice perpetuated to be reasonable?

So, yes, let’s adhere to your so simple….

Yet so perfect world of two categories.

Black being the complete absorption of the light around you?

You cannot even try to see beyond it?

Afraid of what this means for you & your existence.

Fragile in thought so much so that you cannot even step into the void?

I guess I am here to tell you that in this dark matter…

I have learned there is actually a lot less to be afraid of…

Than what is already outside in the light.

There is nothing but comfort to touch in this sweet abyss.

That I currently reside and reign in.

In this complete absorption of light is where I can experience the most joy.

The only place where I am allowed to exist.

I am honored to be placed here.

I do not have to know everything.

I do not have to see to anything.

I do not have to be anything at all.

Please, do not be afraid because everything has its end.

The fact is that you are most welcome here at anytime.

I was never interested in the concept of a win.

I may be a stranger to you now…

Just remember you once had called me a friend.