HEAL MY SPIRIT
Unhinged and it is mighty beautiful.
Truthfully.
Why’s the door even there in the first place?
If I ain’t gonna deadbolt the bullshit out of my life?
I suppose door’s ain’t just for slamming in my face?
Them the type to kick the doors down anyway.
I am just the one who knows doors keep opening.
When I am not too busy fumbling through…
The wrong keys…
Especially for doors that ain’t for me?
I promise y’all…
YOU CAN HAVE IT.
Just maybe?
If the doors weren’t slammed in my face I wouldn’t even have this little life I live.
For that…
I am grateful..
My life is beautiful. Vibrant.
Glory to His name.
I hear the degrading whispers.
At times…
From every corner.
Almost as if I shouldn’t have the audacity to love me?
Meanwhile, I pray they love themselves enough to not be so perplexed.
If I am so horrible…
I still love me.
Maybe, to some that could be somewhat inspiring?
No hexes strong enough to fight against God’s path.
Most the time I’m just floating.
Please let it be clear…
I’m not gloating.
I just had times where all I had was…
Self loathing.
Nah, I’m telling you those knives.
Went pretty deep.
Turning around to count them.
Is the recipe to misery.
I do not mind in the misery business.
No hexes against me shall prosper.
I live in a world of infinite possibility.
I will let anyone or anything go.
However…
Prior to that you’ll know.
Exactly, where you sit or stand with me bro.
I am grateful.
Not hateful.
I have people to tell my journey to.
Go ahead tell everyone how I am not to be treated.
I have always been small.
Not defeated.
I have my off days like anyone else.
I have no high disposition
I don’t sit on some high shelf.
I am well within reach if you need me.
Although, there is barely anyone listening.
Good God has me…
By all means…
Color me crazy.
That I am no longer doubting.
When it comes to love.
God and the lessons He taught me.
Where nothing is confusing.
It’s just me versus me.
I stand in my light.
Begging to be less right about things.
I am grateful for my humble beginnings.
I got to finally see.
What was worth my time.
Realizing.
Any ego around me isn’t mine.
Most certainly not my fight.
The eternal internal shows externally.
This was the exact point spirit took flight.
The strength well within my bones.
Sets the tone.
Of me being my first priority.
It’s quite alright to be boring.
You won’t find me.
Out and about…
I am also not ignoring.
I just threw ‘exciting’ out the window when I could barely recognize me.
When I became the person I never wanted to be.
When I look back.
The past screams, “lack.”
No…
This may not be the easy path.
It is mine regardless.
In it I find all the meaning.
