MORE VIDA LESS LOCA

When rage is the last resort.

They’ll do it for fun.

I do it for sport.

Go ahead roll your eyes.

Find someway to contort.

“I found my path!”

Laughable in the deepest sort.

Being sensed, senseless hasn’t seen me since…

You know…

When the adaptation to your environment doesn’t quite work.

All of that work put in.

I tried & I tried to be just like them.

Couldn’t quite fit in…

Fitting out was the match.

Lit.

Burning right up the very foundations that crumbled me.

Right on past the candle wick.

Can’t be mad at me for being past it.

What’s on the other end of all that though?

Nothing? Really.

I’ve seen nothing before.

You spot it a few times…

Then you find it far more clearly.

I’ve shattered nothing near me.

In the worldly matters.

That is.

That truly would be…

Some madness.

Don’t worry though…

I am still building.

Apologies, I’m not conspiring in the earthly sense.

May I suggest to loosen up and not be so tense?

My presence seems uneasy but I am worth it.

Apologies again, overstepping and sh!t.

A mere oversight.

Just try your best to circumvent.

In this world .

In my very little world…

A laugh is the only thing well spent.

Seriously though…

Saving it right on in my ‘serious’ notes.

Wouldn’t be me if I didn’t crack a little joke…

You see as miserable as the world wants to make me.

I am still just as…

If not more funny.

Humor me for the moment.

Pretty please.

OI suppose one day…

I can only hope…

To not have to pretend that each time I call any sort of attention…

To my wounds….

That someone won’t wince.

I know, I know…

Not making some big ask…

Just wouldn’t be very me of me.

Only the enemy degrades, refuses & evades the inevitable.

Inevitably…

I don’t want to be the reason anyone else’s hope fades.

I don’t want to give up in the exact moment I should’ve fought the hardest.

There’s still kindness within me.

I’ve lost it…

Maybe?

Three times too many times…

Losing what I already thought was everyone & everything.

Don’t you see?

Trying their way while their saddest songs played & I listened.

I tried my hardest to care.

Some just couldn’t let me.

I didn’t run away.

I stayed long enough until they got the real reason why they came.

They came for my Faith.

You can try to break me.

Only to find that you won’t like me…

When I finally break away.

That’s just the nature of things…

Greedy spirits keep chipping away…

While the opportunists of the world hum to the same tune.

Until it all becomes what?

What they really wanted for me in the first place?

For me to become unrecognizable.

Wouldn’t it just be a shame to forget me?

I ask myself from time to time.

While they try to take away my last shreds of humanity.

Oh no…

The humility parade came once again & it simply lifted me away.

Life STILL doesn’t suck more than the lollipop brigade.

What a float!? Huh?

Cataclysmic to charades…

Here’s to…

I’m okay!

I’m okay?

I’m okay…

Feeling myself to remind everyone I am very much still here.

INCOMING!

The bee line to, “I will be fine.”

Comes faster than tomorrow…

Today.

Anyways…

If I’m wandering alone & you can’t give me peace.

Stay far away.

Don’t come anywhere near me.

Leave.

If you cannot protect yourself or me then respectfully…

It is farewell… GOODBYE!

You certainly must find somewhere else to be.

My kindness & Faith are the last of my good things.

They’re clawed into, mauled & I STILL refuse to let it go.

No. No. NO!

I hold onto them endlessly & they are mine infinitely.

Only letting go…

Of anyone or anything that doesn’t uphold that one single boundary.

Easy.

Didn’t you know?

Only fools want more than infinity?

Precisely…

I mean what is the real cost of loyalty?

In precedence I am asking kindly.

For my kindness isn’t transactional.

Needing and wanting.

Are two very different things.

Are you really even hearing me?

Anyways…

Kindness…

Infinite pools of it within me.

Access denied if you don’t respect me.

Genuinely.

I guess…

People are just going to have to let a woman breathe.

The cost is simply too expensive, I see.

The collectives are already in shambles.

I don’t have to do a single thing.

Big shout out to the ideals of society.

I choose my peace over all of the worldly…

People.

Places.

Things.

Sure, my kindness may be marked with teeth.

From ripping any shred of it away from the ill-intentioned.

I guess that’s the point where things just get plain, "crazy."

Mi vida.

Is that one “crazy chica” in reference to little ol’ me?

I don’t think the ones on the other end will get it.

I remember when hope felt like a luxury.

Silly.

Reset. Reframe. Hastily.

Despair long left me.

It could indeed always be worse.

Been there too before…

Right amongst the, “haves.”

Having to choose between the two broken wolves inside of me.

Anyways being a ‘have not’ never frightened me much really.

The frightening thing would actually be…

Letting money rule my every intention.

So, in turn I just lay in my bed & dream…

Myself up a little life worth living.

Even though I’m already in it.

I promise you this.

I am well.

Well on my way.

My soul is deep as the endless well.

Nothing in my life is some twisted fantasy.

There is nothing to escape.

Now that’s a bit…

“Funny innit?”

Countless chuckles within my spirit.

Go ahead.

Screenshot all my, “secrets.”

I happily send it.

I am elated at all the dirt excavated.

I hand it all over.

With the biggest smile on my face.

Not forgetting…

The world owes me nothing.

I owe me everything.

Note iT…

There are just some things you wouldn’t believe.

No worries!

That’s my queue to leave.

Resting up because…

The best of my work is always done tirelessly.